MPDG

when you wake up and you are sort of in love with yourself

just woke up from a christmas day nap. Even though the holidays are made for noise, I still love the silence I can grant myself through a nap.

The thing about the Christmas Holiday is that it goes by so fast... and I'm not even talking about the gifts or whatever. I mean the actual time frame that the holiday of Christmas shifts to focus on New Years goes by super fast. Technically it is still Christmas, the 25th, but I'm already thinking about New Years, my plans and my lists of the good, the bad and the change.

I will probably post a separate post on my "Best of 2010's"

For the rest of 2010 though, I'd like to finish reading my novel. I hate how reading makes me so relaxed, that I fall asleep after reading like 3 pages. The book isnt even boring! I am just conditioned to fall asleep while reading. Add that to changes needed to be made in 2011.

xx

Quizzes for while i am in bed naked.

This is seriously going to get personal, you ready?

always

If you were caught cheating, would you fess up?

i wouldnt cheat. i would break up with the person first, then do whatever i wanted... but what i do after post break up, i may or may not disclose.

The last time you felt honestly broken?

over a year ago.

Are you craving something?

a lover

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?

moonay

Would you rather have ten kids, or none?

ten kids.

What do you hear right now?

florence

Is your bed against more than one of your walls?

in the corner, so two.

What’s on your mind right now?

this quiz pretty much

Are you there for your friends?

i like to think so... people like to ask me for advice, or confide in me... but sometimes dealing with other people's feelings is weird and i dont know what to do... but i try.

Last person to see you cry?

seriously crying? no idea.

laugh crying, probably my family.

What do you do when you get nervous?

google, sleep.

Be honest, do you like people in general?

people in general no... but i get by.

How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids?

late 20's early-mid 30's.

Does anyone completely understand you?

not ~completely~ but a good amount that is necessary. sometimes i dont even get me tbh.

Do you have a reason to smile right now?

yes. it's christmas.

Has anyone told you they don’t ever wanna lose you?

yes.

Would you be happier if life had a rewind button?

like curtis in the misfits? it would be good to change things that you didnt like... but i think once you have a taste of being able to change things... you'll just get greedy and never be happy. I am content with everything in my life thus far... id like to see how it turns out. But maybe...

Do you tell your mum or dad everything?

no

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes?

Not really no.

Are you going to get hurt anytime soon by someone?

hopefully not

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?

no one

Do you think more about the past, present, or future?

present

How many hours of sleep do you get a night?

i try at at least get 6

Are you easy to get along with?

it depends on your personality and how well it meshes with mine.

Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?

lol no, thats my mom.

What was the last drink that you put in your mouth?

coke

What size bed do you have?

Queen duh

Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in?

before. who does it otherwise?

Do you like the rain?

i love it.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

maybe. it would be nice.

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do?

of course. that's what life is right?

Would people refer to you as a goodie goodie, bad news, or neither?

LOL never a goodie goodie... but not bad news either.

Who were you last in the car with, besides family?

Hilary on a megabus

What’s the last movie you saw in theaters and with who?

Easy A? with a bunch of my gaybys

Have you ever kissed someone who had a boyfriend/ girlfriend?

Yep.

Have you ever been hurt by someone you never thought would hurt you?

yes, but i hurt him too... to be fair.

Your parents are out of town. Would you throw a massive party?

No.

Do you regret a past relationship?

absolutely no regrets

Would you rather spend a Friday night at a concert or a crazy party?

crazy party

Do you tend to fall for the same type of person over and over?

no.

Have you made a joke about somebody that made them cry?

probably

Do you care too much about your appearance?

not really. i wish i could obsess over my weight gain, but i really dgaf

Are you a jealous person?

yes

Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?

no

Do you miss anyone?

No.

Last person who made you cry?

the writers of HIMYM

Does your ex piss you off?

no.

What are you doing tomorrow?

working boxing day

Are you the type of person who has a new boyfriend/ girlfriend every week?

no

Is there anyone you want to come see you?

no, i really like being alone right now.

Have you ever been cheated on?

Never. I am too good to be cheated on.

Ever given your all to someone who walked away?

peut etre

Do you like cotton candy?

no

Who was the last person you had a serious conversation with?

Hilary at a bar, drunk, in NYC

Are you planning to get knocked up or knock someone up by age 17?

I am past 17

Do you have siblings?

a sister

Have you ever fallen asleep on someone?

family, friends

How has the past week been for you?

i was sick, i got better, i had christmas fun.

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?

yes, but i dont really like talking

What’s on your mind right now?

sleep

What were you doing at midnight last night?

opening gifts

What is your current mood?

tired

Who was the first person you talked to today?

my cousin RJ

Will this week be a good one?

hopefully

Anything happen to you within the past month that made you really happy?

saw my little man marvin

Who were you with last night?

my family

Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?

no

Next time you will kiss someone?

who knows!

Who should start the kiss, the girl or the boy?

the boy. show me chivalry isnt dead.

Do you have any plans for the weekend?

working boxing day

I see U, K.

Holidays are here!

Blogging 8 mins away from christmas day.

Only to deliver some not so good, but realistic news.

With my trip to NYC and holidays right after, it has been hard to keep up with my calorie counting.

But for the new year, i am dedicated to losing the weight i have gained because i hate seeing pictures of me, and i no longer have my hour glass figure... rather just a puffy ball.

going to visit the gym regularly during the school semester, as well as maintain a calorie deficit.

but as for now, the holidays are here, and im going to try and not indulge TOO MUCH.

hope you all are well,

happy holidays to you and yours.

xx

i am becoming such an anglophile

starting to use UK slang and phrases in my everyday speech... what's worse is that i say them in, what are my attempts at a British accent.

really considering moving there in the future.

this is a Nathan Young/Robert Sheehan Appreciation blog

so i will admit i have been slacking on the whole workout/fitness thing. mainly because of exams and the lot of it.

in the midst of school and whatever, i have become obsessed with this UK series called Misfits. I fell in love with one of the main characters of the show, as well as the actor who plays him.

Nathan/Robert, if he was in highschool, i would be writing love letters too in all my notebooks.

My cousins would agree that he is my type: tall, dark features, curly hair, twat, awesome sense of humor, and understated sense of style.... AND AN ACCENT?! UGH.

My obsession is borderline unhealthy, and i find myself crying over him and looking at flights to Ireland in attempts to snag him, or a look a like.

When i get back from NY im totes buying the dvd from ebay.

Day 4: Working out from home

So, I think I have finally committed to this working out and fitness thing. Having these online calculators that have numbers in front of me that help me visualize my goal.

So i started to count calories, which i hope sticks.

I dont know if im going to be going to the gym today, so i think i might have to do some in house working out.

Wish me luck :D

Goals

Since in about an hour it will be December (soooo crazy), i thought it would be a good idea to do a calorie deficit to try and speed up the weight loss.

If i do a 1000 calories a day with working out 3-5 times a week this would be the results:

If i stick to it, I could be at my goal weight (130) by March! Which isnt that far away. I extended the goals to include 120... but i dont know if that is a weight that i would want to venture, because I dont know if that weight would be suitable for my curves.

I am allowing myself to eat up to 1300, however would ideally like to cap it off at 1000 calories.

Thinking about cheat days with the holidays around.

Day 3 Workout

So this is my third day in a row going to the gym, im actually pretty proud of myself and my dedication.

My legs were pretty dead from the 2 days of straight cardio I had been doing, so i did less of that today, and more weights and mat work

So here is the rundown of the workout i did.

Treadmill: 5 mins (incline 15, speed 3.5)

Treadmill: 5 mins (incline 8, speed 4.0)

Treadmill: 5 mins (incline 0, speed 3-3.5)

Elliptical: 15 mins gluteal 1 setting

Rowing: 10 mins, manual setting

60 hip adductions

60 hip abductions

25 bicep curls

30 tricep lifts

30 lunges

some other arm thing using a machine i cant remember.

1 min 20 second plank pose

also thinking about counting calories. until next time!

Day 2 Workout

i went to the gym after work today, because i didnt go in the morning.

I did:

Treadmill: 20 mins (15 incline, speed 3-4)

Treadmill: 5 mins jogging (0 incline, speed4.5)

Elliptical: 15 mins (gluteal setting)

50 Crunches

25 Side crunches

20 Scissor kicks

Tomorrow, i plan on doing more cardio and an arms workout.

Weigh in on the weekend.

beginnings

i went to the gym today and got in a good cardio out.

unfortunately i had to face the scale today. the number is depressing, but i refuse to let it get to me.

so here are my beginning stats

SW: 165 lbs

CW: 165 lbs

UGW: 125-130

reflections at 12:25 am

I am perceived as a person who knows who she is, and I am. However, I often get glimpses of the people who I used to associate with... and I wonder about the person I once was.

I think about how I had such close bonds with these people, people that I only remember when I make the effort to. People that I have actively, and successfully, tried to forget.

I would agree that I know the person I am, and that I am in love with the person I am and the person I am becoming... but this transition is still in it's early stages so I am still dealing with the every "now and then" when I have these moments where I recollect on my life and my choices.

I think of it this way: If it is meant for us to be friends, it will be. It didnt work out for a reason, and I should not feel bad about it. Everyone is at different places in their lives, and those places dont include each other in the picture. If in the future our paths cross again, you know what? I'll deal with it then.

Right now, I'm focusing on the now. I can't be mentally occupied wondering what if this, what if that. Focusing on myself and the gorgeous person I am and will be.

In losing friends, I gained myself... and that is something I would never want to trade.

Teenage Dream

Just when I thought I couldn't get enough of this song.

i hate you so much, that it burns when i look at you

Do You Trust Your Friends?

Stars - Your Ex-Lover is Dead

I just discovered this alternate version of one of my favorite stars songs.

If it were possible to make me feel more of a wreck listening to this song... it is. I just spent about 20 minutes taking this in, and staring inadvertently into space.

deux moins

so me and my close friend have agreed to a 2 month challenge.

In which, we try and lose 20 pounds within 2 months.

I am scared i'll fail, but i really need to try.

I have been battling with my fluctuating weight for god knows how long.

I am to lose 40 pounds in total... maybe more depending.

I wont post before pictures just yet... but you'll definitely be hearing about my progress.

so won't you kill me? so i'll die happy.

the best summer song ever.

new ring and new nailpolish.

forgive the bitten nails on the one hand. it's been a stressful few weeks.

I know it's November

I can't remember when i first heard this song. but what i can remember is how it made me feel.

I had always loved the emotion and melodramatic nature of all The Smiths songs. This song was no exception.

I know it's over, is a song about a love that is not returned and the emotional consequences that come with it and eventually accepting that this love will ever be yours.

I personally, have never been in love... but i certainly do know what it feels like to know that something is over.

I turned 21 this weekend

CRBNLL & KBDS

I love being black

i miss you. i always will. the optimist in me thinks that in about 5 years, we'll be friends again. the pessimist in me wants one of us to die.

just havent earned it yet, baby

I'm doing fine, thanks for asking.

Sorry for the delay

happy thanksgiving!

Hi all,

Happy (Canadian) Thanksgiving to everyone! Happy Columbus Day to all you Americans out there.

Sorry again for the lack of updates.

I had just finished cleaning my room, because it was horrendous. I can finally see my bedroom floor, which is astonishing. A few hours before, it was covered in piles of clothes, chaotically organized in "dirty" "clean" and "still wearable" piles... but now it is clean, i vacuumed, everything is alright.

My dad is cooking our thanksgiving dinner, and im stuck in my room "reading." I have 9 pages down, only about 100 something to go. I plan on not sleeping tonight and tomorrow.

After cleaning today, i decided to take pictures on myself, because i am very vain... and this is what resulted






i am obsessed with everything black. obsessed i tells yous! im waiting to be anorexic, so i can be chic and wear black and chain smoke and DGAF.

GOOD FRIDAYS

Wetbar in Toronto, for my girl Thuy's 21st.

The night was hectic. Originally, Hilary and I were going to subway down after my shift which ended at 9, and make it to the club for 11. Upon talking to Krystle, she offered a ride to the subway and then all 3 of us would head over together. Sweet Deal right? Wrong.

During my dead ass/pointless/whyisbikinivillageeveninbusiness shift, me and krystle were exchanging bbms, where there were complications on her end. Essentially she wasnt home, and didnt have her car, and couldnt go home because she was stuck at Kipling station with her parents waiting for her cousins who were ~2 hours late.

Instead of leaving krystle high and dry, she suggested i pick her up from kipling, drive to oakville, pick up her car/her get ready, drive back to mississauga, drop off my car/me get ready, pick hilary up, and go to the subway, then club... all before 11 (when guestlist ends). Me being worried about making it on time, we modified the plan for krystle to be dropped off at my mall, instead of me picking her up. So we did that.

I hate driving highways ESPECIALLY AT NIGHT, ESPECIALLY WITHOUT MY GLASSES.. yet i did. I was speeding like a mother to try and save time, shaking as i put my foot to the pedal. BUT at one point i was driving 140km/h, because some asshole behind me was highbeaming me... then the fucker ended up doing some random ass driving in front of me. ugh.

ANYWAY, we get to krystles place... she's getting ready and i get a call from Hil saying she isnt in the mood to go out anymore. I tried to sway her to come out, and it was a success. Krystle finishes getting ready and now its back on the highway. On the drive there i get a call from bobby saying Hilary isnt coming... which i didnt get cuz i just got off the phone with her... which i didnt understand, because why isnt hilary calling me.. and why am i talking to bobby. I told him, that i was confused but couldnt stay on the phone cuz i was driving. We get back on the highway, and im telling you it was so nerve wracking. Hating life. the only thing that was keeping me sane, was me praying out loud, taking deep breaths and Nicki Minaj on the radio.

Upon coming home, I got about 3 texts from Hilary saying she changed her mind. After crying for about 20 minutes (but not really) I rushed to get ready. I already straighten my hair before work and skanked out my face at work, because it was so dead. So all i needed to do was put on the dress and heels. Looked like a hooker, which was appropriate. Then me and Krystle headed out.

Leaving Mississauga at 10:26pm, arriving in Toronto 15 minutes later. We got to the club, parked and waited. Got in, and started drinking. Getting drunk off of vodka. FYI i hate vodka, but i discovered that lime juice and cranberry mixed with vodka is really good LOL.

Me and Krystle were being hit on by one of Thuy's boys, who invited us to his apartment to have a threesome with him... he also mentioned a roommate. We asked him how big his dick was, and he said he was packing... we were dying of laughter. Krystle and I were also being harassed by this whack black dude who didnt understand the meaning of NO MEANS NO. so i had to get aggressive and push him and yell.

Thuy got so wrecked she got kicked out, but other than that it was a good night!

University Nights

CFRE's Free Pub Night. Free Beer all night. What a way to spend a Thursday.

I left the teabag in too long.

The tea was bitter, but I drank it anyway. Then I realized, that moment was a metaphor for my life.

What's too painful to remember, we simply choose to forget.

Crying music.

Sunday, Wake Up. Give me a cigarette.

My coworker gave me a pack of KENT cigarettes our shift Saturday. I smoked two today.

Saturdays

Marina and the Diamonds - Numb

Homophobic Comments.

homophobia |ˌhōməˈfōbēə|
noun
an extreme and irrational aversion to homosexuality and homosexual people.

I go to a university in Ontario that some would argue is more homophobic than other universities nearby. Some have pointed fingers to the conservative nature of my campus, as contributing to the homophobia on campus. It is also debatable that the high volume of muslim students on campus is also a contributor to the homophobia on campus. Although the homophobia is not always overt, the tension of the big pink gay elephant in the room, is a presence that can definitely be felt.

The homophobia on campus ranges from passive actions like turning a cold shoulder to someone handing out a "LGBTQ related button," to a blunt calling of someone a "faggot". As a heterosexual woman, I cannot fathom, nor fully relate to how a homophobic remark can make a person of queer or non-heterosexual orientation, feel. My heterosexuality allows me the privilege of knowing that i cannot identify with the term being thrown at me, allowing me to be more shielded when it comes to homophobic comments, however, this does not mean I am not as deeply effected.

I have always been a person who has been for the equal rights of all people, not only the LGBTQ community, but for everyone, but have taken a particular interest in queer issues... for reasons which are beyond my understanding. I have always been drawn to the queer community. I have been accepting of them, and as an Ally, they have been accepting of me. This is a reason why I do take such offense to derogatory terms, especially knowing these words are CHOICE words that can be used against a group of people who I feel so strongly for.

To hear that someone had used a the f-word in any instance, be it an attempt to make a joke, or just being vulgar, is enough to make my blood boil and make me feel nauseous at the same time. I easily get heated over words like this, and it is apparent in my demeanor when it occurs. It is frustrating to hear these words, and even more enraging to not have an adequate comeback that won't lower you to the offender's level. Words are just words, yes... but they can hurt the fuck out of someone in the right context. Like what do you say to someone who has hatefully called you a fag? or a dyke? Sometimes you just pile on as many adjectives onto the word fuck, and call it a day, other times you're left there with your jaw dropped and a blank mind.

It is a disappointment when people use these terms at all, but more disappointing when people I know use the term. In the past, I too used a few of these words, to "liven up" my vocabulary... but with age and maturity, had realized that these words are inappropriate, and hold no benefit to me saying them. Since this enlightenment, I have made it a personal goal of mine to eradicate such language from my own vocabulary and try and inform others to do so as well. I accept the fact that not everyone will appreciate my interjection and attempt to try and prevent them speaking the way THEY WANT TO SPEAK, however, at least if i try, it may make an impact which can domino effect into something more substantial. I realize that not everyone wants to or even can be "that person" or that "friend" who tries to call you out on your shit, trying to correct your vocabulary, but someone has to. In the end, you may as well make the effort and have it fail, than not make the effort at all. Most likely, that person will recall the time you told them not to call something "so fucking gay..." they may not think too much of it, but they'll remember it, then hopefully, enough time will pass and they may look back and think, "maybe you were right." These words have a history of oppression towards the LGBTQ community and are not acceptable. Not if you're being serious, not even if you're joking. In my mind, if you need to resort to calling someone one of these words "as a joke," get a new comedy routine.

I realize that everyone is entitled to their own opinion and that is perfectly fine, but what it comes down to is respect. You might not be down with the gays like I am, you may not understand gay culture, you just might not "get it" and that's fine! but if you don't understand it, at least be a decent human being and respect it. One shouldnt be judging something one doesn't understand... this my friend, is called ignorance. If a queer lifestyle does not agree with your lifestyle, it's cool, IT DOESNT HAVE TO, it isnt the end of the world... let bygones be bygones, and move the hell on.

I live for the day where such words become phased out from the english language. Until then, I'll continue to be that friend to yell out EQUITY at you, and hopes i will get through to you, like someone once did for me.

PhotoBooth

so when i get bored, i usually put on make up and take pictures. i was bored yesterday, here's what happened:








I have recurring obsessions with all things military and pin-up, can you tell?

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OH so, i lost SIX POUNDS from frosh (aka, no sleep, poor diet, running around, being sick from the FROSH FLU).

i have also become a pescetarian once again.

FROSH (part 2)

Hi all, hope you're well.

So this last week, was my first week back to school. Overall it was a pretty slow week, which is the norm for the first week of classes. Generally profs go through the course outline, and sometimes have a brief lecture which if anything is a short intro to the class.

For one class I am taking, I spent the class period collecting bugs!

The friday of last week was actually, FROSH pt 2, which mainly just encompassed the annual tri-campus frosh parade. the highlight of the day however, was drinking with the other leaders. Our previous week as leaders, all our events were dry... so this friday was like a breath of fresh air to us all.

Being that the only thing i ate all day was a measly slice of pizza flavored cardboard, after a pint of fosters i was already feeling it. 2 beers in, the frosh leaders headed over to a frat house and continued the festivities. the walk there felt like it was dragging, my feet hurt from the parade, so i complained the whole way there. But once we arrived, it was: Kegs. Pool. Eyelash attachment in the bathroom.

We had to drink up quick to make it back to the campus on time to catch buses to our next event. The walk back to the campus, i really do not have much of a recollection of.... LOL. Had to sober up due to responsibilities... but then got cray at the clubbing event thereafter. Tequila shots, Cranberry vodkas, and snakebites. dead. Ended up taking the 12:45 bus home (the last one was 2:30am) because of the exhaustion, and the fact that i worked the next day at 9:15am. Trying to sober up on a bumpy bus ride is really difficult. I was invited to go to denny's once arriving back on campus, but declined, because of the aforementioned job. Drove Miguel home, while sobering up during the drive... i do NOT recommend this, as although i did arrive alive, being a paranoid driver is not good.

Upon arriving home, i crashed. passed out, and woke up a few hours later for work.. Thankfully my coworkers were exhausted and hungover from the night before as well, so i didnt have to suffer alone.

I would say, Frosh was a success. I already miss the people and the atmosphere. I can't wait till Frosh leader appreciation rolls around, so we can all get cray one more time!

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Updates!

Life for me has been pretty hectic the past few weeks. With me being in hawaii, it was understandable why i wouldnt want to blog so much.

I miss hawaii so much, flipping through my pictures on my camera is enough to make me miss it.

I spent my days on the beach, in the ocean, just being silent. Scaling volcanic rock barefoot, being asked if i was a local and discovering life in tidal pools. Walking around Honolulu, night and day, going to the local shops and malls, and overall just hanging around.

One of the highlights was me going snorkeling. On the way there was amazing, the view from the catamaran was breathtaking. We were lucky enough to spot dolphins, which swam right up to the boat. It is such a trip to see wild dolphins, especially the spinner variety, that leap out of the water before you. Everything was fine and dandy until, i decided to sit down and got seasick as the boat was anchoring itself... which made snorkeling a hassle. I ingested some salt water as well, because snorkeling equipment is weird, and makes your mouth feel awkward. So every now and then, i'd come up for air, and hate life, gagging because of the gross water. But the real moment of the day was when a total stranger informed me my top fell off in the water. After that, i was done. I climbed back on the boat, threw up, and slept. Didnt even eat lunch, because i hated life. Amazing i know.

The second island i went to was Maui. The island vibe is definitely one to be felt there. It is more remote, and more laid back, in comparison to Honolulu which is more like a busy city because of all the tourists. In maui, we had the nicer villa, and the beach was across the street. I spent most of my maui days at the beach...sometimes going to the beach alone, because I couldnt stand to be indoors.

Hawaii is definitely a place i would love to visit again. the lifestyle there is so laid back. I wouldnt mind staying on a more remote island away from the hussle bussle of tourist life. Already working out for my next trip back.

As if leaving Hawaii was a difficult task in itself, leaving Hawaii, only to go directly to school post-landing, left me butt hurt.

After my 12 hour flight back to toronto, losing 6 hours along the way, I had to book it to school, to fulfill my duties as a frosh leader. Luckily the first day was pretty slack, I was 4 hours late, but the coordinator was aware of my lateness prior to my arrival. All the hard work was done, and the only thing left to do for the day, was eat pizza, and a dance party. Got really slutty and sweaty with the other frosh leaders and the night ended at around 2am.

The next day had a 10am call time, to which that day we I was assigned to my frosh group, containing 2 other leaders, and my froshies (first year students). We did general ice breakers and got to mingle with one another, which was really fun. I got along with my froshies as well as my cofrosh leaders. I got along with the guy just fine, since he was laid back, but still was able to get the job done. He warned me about the other frosh leader we were grouped up with, mentioning she seems serious, and doesnt seem like she would be a good time. She was fine the first day. This day ended in a carnival, as well as a clubbing event at a club down town. At the club, there was a guest appearance from SYTYCD's and ABDC's QuestCrew. More slutty dancing, etc. this night also ended at around 2am.

The next day has a 9am role call, and took place all on campus. It consisted of UTMAC games, basically, stations featuring different activities. Also, a cheer off. During the UTMAC games, my group bonded as a whole, and i could tell all my froshies were starting to love frosh. This day i did however get into an argument with the girl partner, as she was a basic bitch, that cant read a chart. In her own frustration because of her incompetence, she got upset at me, and started a fight. She asked me why i was mad, which i wasnt... well i was more annoyed that she is a dumb bitch that cant follow instructions. She wasnt with aour group the whole day, because she was "volunteering" when no one asked her too. Also, she blames the fact that she was volunteering, as to why she didnt know what was going on. My response was, i was volunteering too, plus we all got the same information at the same time, so it wasnt like she missed anything, she is just too dumb to function, and cannot read a chart. I told her point blank, i didnt appreciate her tone and her getting upset with me, especially when i was trying to help her. Then this foreign bitch comes at me, asking why i was yelling.... i was like BITCH, i am not yelling, i dont even have a voice to yell at you with. GIRL BYE.

my group, combined with hilary's group for the cheer-off, and the stranger bitch in my group left cuz she is useless. Our cheer (made my courtney) had a line referencing the Bed Intruder song, which placed us in the TOP 8 (yeeeeeeee!). We still lost, but whatever.

This night ended in a hypnotist show and talent contest. it ended at around 12.

The last day, was a bust, we were supposed to have a bunch of dt events which got ruined by the weather. We were supposed to collect money for charity, but my group decided to put in our own money, and walk downtown to find food. Hilight, was talking to a cute boy from the jam van, and stealing him a box of pizza. Because of the weather, we didnt do any of the st george events (other than pan handling and eating) so we were moved to medieval times earlier than expected. Me and Hilary got split up, so i was the yellow knight, and she was the black and white one. My knight owned the sporting competition, but later got killed... hilary's knight won. side eye.

after the show, was the dance, which is always a good time. Post the dance, i headed home. this was around 2am. the next morning... well same morning, only a few hours later... i worked.

Pretty confident, i lost some weight because of these weeks.... i lost my voice, and caught a cold... and now fever because of the hecticness of it all.

Going to the gym tomorrow to see whats upppp