reflections at 12:25 am

I am perceived as a person who knows who she is, and I am. However, I often get glimpses of the people who I used to associate with... and I wonder about the person I once was.

I think about how I had such close bonds with these people, people that I only remember when I make the effort to. People that I have actively, and successfully, tried to forget.

I would agree that I know the person I am, and that I am in love with the person I am and the person I am becoming... but this transition is still in it's early stages so I am still dealing with the every "now and then" when I have these moments where I recollect on my life and my choices.

I think of it this way: If it is meant for us to be friends, it will be. It didnt work out for a reason, and I should not feel bad about it. Everyone is at different places in their lives, and those places dont include each other in the picture. If in the future our paths cross again, you know what? I'll deal with it then.

Right now, I'm focusing on the now. I can't be mentally occupied wondering what if this, what if that. Focusing on myself and the gorgeous person I am and will be.

In losing friends, I gained myself... and that is something I would never want to trade.